Teenagers.

I'm sitting. Thinking. Listening to music.
Not doing anything i should be doing.
How is it possible to love and hate being a teenager at the same time.
(That was rhetorical, i do NOT want your answers.. Sorry)
I have my own reasons...
And since you are reading my blog, you obviously care about what that reason is..

So here you go:
They said all teenagers scare the living shit out of me. They could care less as long as someone'll bleed. So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose. Maybe they’ll leave you alone, but not me. The boys and girls in a clique, the awful names that they stick. You’re never gonna fit in much, kid. But if you’re troubled and hurt, what you got under your shirt, will make them pay for the things that they did.

Teenagers by My Chemical Romance.

That song is so true. I laugh everytime i hear it. It is my life's song.
... That's kinda depressing actually, but oh well.

Being a teenager is traumatic. Probably the most traumatic time in life..
I mean think about it.
Infants- You're always cradled. Someone is always giving you attention. You always get what you want. When you have to pee REALLY bad but are too lazy to get up at 4am and walk to the bathroom... YOU DON'T HAVE TOO! Because you can just shit your pants. Woop. Good times.
Kids- You get more freedom. And though still under your parents rule, you can now go down the street to Dude's house and ride your bike 3 blocks over. But when you fall off and scrape your knee, you can still go crying to mommy and she will kiss it, put some neosporin on it, slap on a band-aid. And then you are good to go play again. But WAIT, don't forget your complimentary juice box you get for being so tough.
Young Adults- You. Are. Out. Of. Your. Parents. House. Enough said.
I'm sooooo ready to be out. At this point, you don't have to worry about being under someone elses rules. Yet, when you are upset, you can still call your momma or daddy and they will do ANYTHING for you.
Adults- You have your own life... Stop worrying about yourself and worry about your fucking kids. Damn.


But Teenagers are a WHOLE different story. Fuck teenagers. Fuck High School. Fuck drama. Fuck relationships. Fuck peer pressure. Fuck homework. Fuck parents. Fuck anything that isn't music.
Music gets me through being a teenager.

Back to teenagers being filled with Trauma.
I mean, i don't know about everyone elses lives. But i LOVED my life, until i became a teenager.
Then, it went downhill. And now i can't wait to just get out.
The worst things in my life have happened since i've been a teenager.


Or maybe it's just that i remember everything more clearly from the past few years than i do any other time period.
Fuck. Maybe i'm all wrong.
I don't know. I just know that i started Freshman year as a Mount Saint Mary Academy Student and i HATED that school with all of my heart. Then to top it all off, the end of the year, my mom died.

Wow. High School blows.



But i guess so do alot of things.